September 8, 2011 § 1 Comment
It’s been oh…almost 2 months since I’ve been home. Home with my son, home for my husband, home to be a mom, wife, and right where God has placed me. I can’t explain the goodness of how right it is each day I wake up to walk through another day playing, teaching, loving my son, and growing as the woman God wants me to be.
How do you go from a full time job to being at home? Financially how do you drop an income? How do you care for a little one all day? Do you go crazy? Do you long for adult conversation? Do you grow weary? Do you miss the work world?
I had these thoughts run through my mind time and again before we made the decision that God clearly lead us to.
And now here I am on the other side of that decision. Living it out day by day.
Oh the joy. I cannot even describe it. It is truly with joy I greet each day. Being able to focus on the ones my heart loves, focus on the role God has called me to live, it is so full of joy, peace, and good. I love being the one to watch our son learn new things. I never knew that being a mother could be sooo fulfilling. That watching this little tiny boy grow and being there to train him- what else in all this world is more important?
I love being able to keep our home, to be the keeper of the home. I take pleasure in preparing nourishing meals for my family.
And our faith…
Jonah and I have learned to lean on God for our needs. Knowing that my income is no longer there, we have continued to seek Him in prayer asking specifically for Him to meet our needs each month. And you know what? He has.
What about the worry of not having enough?
It’s not there. God is.
Here and there we have seen money trickle in and it’s come from places we never would have thought. It’s amazing, it’s exciting!
I love love love relying on God for our needs. I love stepping out into an unknown, because it’s the only way I can grow in faith. Grow in my walk, leaning hard on my God.
And our marriage.
I am in awe of this man. The one that God clearly placed in my life, by my side. Jonah has become a leader, full of love, full of support. And I don’t deserve it, but I am so humbled and grateful for it, knowing what he willingly offers to me is because his heart is close to God. I love this man so dearly, and I am ashamed to say I take him for granted.
Life is so quick, truly a vapor and I don’t want to miss….waste a moment doing something, working somewhere, dwelling on something that is not what God wants for me. I want to live this life to bring glory to Him. I want to pour into this sweet boy, my loving husband all that He pours into me…as a dear friend reminded me.
And at last I leave my favorite quote that reminds me of these precious days:
Cleansing and scrubbing
can wait unil tomorrow,
For babies grow up,
We’ve learned to our sorow.
So, quiet down cobwebs;
Dust go to sleep;
I’m rocking my baby,
And babies don’t keep.